The other day when i woke up from my sleep, i was still feeling my tummy for Phieng Phieng's kick and it took me a while to realise that i have actually given birth and he is no longer in my womb. Feeling kinda of strange and lost at the same time cos he is not here with us as he is still nursing in the hospital.
His jaundice level has been going up and down but it has been maintained below 200 which is good cos he doesnt need go under the phototherapy then. Come on sonny!! u are a fighter, fight this battle for mummy!!
After becoming a mom myself, i realised the scarfices that all moms must have gone through. Yesterday, i was braving diarrhea and my severe gastric pain without medication as i knew that if i have to take any one of those, i might have to stop my breast milk supply to my sonny and no way i am going to do that. So i braved the pain and it has been days already and the gastric pain is still there but every single drop of milk that i have expressed out for him is all worthwhile.
Did i tell u the number of disrupted sleep? Every 3 hrs i would have to wake up and express the milk or else i will face engorgement and the feeling is not something that i would like to experience again.....never ever!! And each session, from sterilisation of the bottles to expressing will take me abt 40mins. Hey, i am not complaining cos everything i do, i do it for my sonny!!
And pa pa mui has also tried his best to take over the washing and sterilisating of bottles on every possible occasion....hmmm...if only he can produce milk as well.
